I guess ..

There are thing that you're scared of. And because of it you never want to speak it off, right?

Absolutely,
I have one. Or maybe more?




I think it's more.

They're just wearing bold masks and letting me down for that.

Two days ago .. I found a bunch of real fact that opened my eyes about KPOP really is.
Back then, I tought Girls' Generation with its nine cute girls was awesome and just gorgeous especially Seohyun (I posted some of her photos). Okay, I knew there are possibilities that they did plastic surgery and I just didn't care about that. I was falling for their charm and characters. They're pure, kind, funny, and just talented.

But, I read articles which was written by someone who had a friend that worked with them as stylist. It was shocking that the articles said they didn't really innocent and kind-hearted like what we saw on TV. Their relationship isn't that tight. I don't even think I can describe it with words. I mean, they're just putting masks.

Everything on TV is scripted.

For every single thing they did. And I wonder how many times I was being lied. By Girls' Generation. By KPOP industry in general.

I live in Indonesia and in my opinion almost all of the artist is fake. Their acting isn't natural and so excessive. Therefore, when I knew about these girls, I was totally into them. And a year later, I was totally into KPOP. Not only about Girls Generation but also SMTown, KPOP variety and reality show such as We Got Married and Running Man and so on.

I started loving We Got Married during a lovely year-end holiday in 2010. There were Khuntoria Couple roled by Nichkhun 2PM and Victoria f(x). Also, Goguma Couple roled by Seohyun Girls' Generation and Yonghwa CNBlue. I loved them both but Khuntoria Couple more. They were sweet, lovable, and looked so natural showing affections. They held hands, hugged, and fed each other whenever and whatever they ate. I tought, oh they do love each other! Just so adorable!

But, I found news that sucks. The headline was Nichkhun and Tiffany is Dating. Guess what? I got really shocked and also by want-to-know feelings.
I'm telling you I'm not kind of person who really care about gossip so it was in 2010 but I knew that in early of 2013. You know? My eyes are popeyed and my brain shouted many disbelieve words. It was like No, no, no~ It can't be! I probably get it wrong!
Sadly, it was true. And I hated it so much.
Here are my reasons:
1. That time, in 2010, Nichkhun was doing We Got Married with Victoria which means they were just acting. Oh God, they fooled me!
2. I adore Nichkhun for being cute but manly at the same time. For being kind and respect to every person he meet. Opposite, I hate Tiffany much more than I adore Nichkhun because she's like bitch, pretending to be sexy but actually she's not.

So, when they date, I don't even need to tell you twice, right?

I'm back!

So yeah, I'm here again, taking care of you, Dear~

I don't really have interesting stories, you know. I mean, there's nothing makes me so happy or so sad. I'm just flat all the time.
So boring. Yeah, that's me.

But, I am on my third term holiday and enjoying my time mostly at home with 24 hours internet broadband. So yeah, I'm spending every minute by googling.
Googling every thing I like, such as ..
Taylor Swift with her new album RED which was released months ago but I've just known these days. Really! I mean, even I love her songs so much, I'm not that kind of person that's so into looking for her.

And so, yeah, I love RED. She clearly speaks my heart.

"And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that every time I don't
I almost do
I almost do
I bet you think I either moved on or hate you
'Cause each time you reach out there's no reply
I bet it never ever occurred to you that I can't say hello to you
And risk another goodbye"

A little bit from I Almost Do which is really really I am.